This is my blog excerpt
I’ve been thinking a lot after my episode and I realised that whilst I was in it, I could sense that a lot of people had a lot of questions so I decided that maybe I should let you ask them
TW: This video may make some of you uncomfortable, viewer discretion is advised.
Typical fear of abandonment has kicked in rather savagely plus the whole anxiety of having writers block, not being funny enough or good enough to make a difference and become noticed. Gah! Fuck you, BPD!!!!
Just once I’d like to get up in the morning and not be crippled with anxiety Can that be arranged?! When I die and get up “There”, I’m going to be giving the Man/Woman/Floating Orb a sharp telling off, unless I’m going to Hell then this is right on the money.
They say that to make sure you really want something The Universe will throw up all sorts of roadblocks and disasters to try and deter you.. Do you what I say to that? Bring. It. On.
2017. What can I say?
Christmas 2017 : 1) Inappropriate feelings towards the festivities? Check 2) Inexplicable sadness followed by lots of guilt? Check 3) A fuck load of food & drink? Double check
Another year is slowly coming to an end and you guys know what that means? Bring on the “Christmas Cheer” bullshit.
That I’m losing my battle with my diagnosis.
Them: “You just need to cheer up” Me: “And you just need a blow dart to the crotch but that isn’t feasible either..”