Soooooo, I was going to run straight into a list but then I realised that the term “self-love” is such an alien concept to me. I don’t know if this is an alien concept for all people or just us lucky few who are “blessed” to have mental health “stuff. The word “illness” and “difficulties” is rubbing me up the wrong way at the moment so I am trying something new, bear with..
Warning: This post may have information or opinions that you may find difficult to manage. TW – Abuse, Borderline Personality Disorder, crippling anxiety, sweaty EVERYTHING and all that good stuff
Me: So I texted him at 21:07pm and he read it at 21:10pm but STILL hasn’t replied. He probably doesn’t fancy me anymore right?
Friend: ERM…no he is probably just busy. Didn’t you just spend all weekend together?
Me: Yeah but he probably didn’t mean it and he is probably drafting a text as we speak wanting to end it…ahh fuck I hate myself so much right now. WHY DID I MESSAGE HIM?! I should have left it another day?! I bet he thinks I am really clingy. NOOOOOOO!!!!! Ah fuck this, I am getting into bed, wake me when McDonald’s, KFC and Nandos deliver. Oh and a bottle of vodka comes as standard…
Warning: Some strong language but you guys are probably used to that by now 😀
Them: “I’d never had guessed you struggled with stuff like that…”
Me: “Oh damn…. has my flashing sign malfunctioned again?”